Recently, I am experiencing a down time of mine. Started to think if what I am doing right now is really worthawhile or not. I really don't want to say it out loud ,but it hurts so badly that I can't hold it no more. Therefore, I drink, blacken my lung and I cry.

As I am writting this message, someting outside of my apt totally disrupt my usual delay-processed thinking. So, me going to stop here. I'll talk to you guys soon.