where is my ladder?
i am still looking for my ladder
where is my ladder to earth?
oh i forgot i actually living on earth
where is my ladder to heaven?
no, my time is not here yet
where is my ladder to getting there?
where is there?
what attracts me there?
what can i find there?
there, where are you?
look over here
i am here

i wanna get a hat so i can cover my gray hair

they are lik e new borns

keep coming out

excited to se the world

people like you walk into my life

happy to be born on this day, maybe

Replace fear of the unknown with curiosity -sergejbraun
"Just because you're different, you're no worse or better. You are just different and being different is something wonderful which defines us as human beings." Sabine Kuegler

we gather our ideas to put them into words,” and if our words aren’t empty or hollow, we might get these ideas across to a listener, who can unpack our words to extract their content. This kind of verbiage is not the exception, but the rule
} steve pinker

The model is not to be copied, but to be realized. Count on big lines to express your ideas. Get the few main lines and see what lines they call out. It takes wit, interest and energy to be happy. The pursuit of happiness is a great activity. One must be open and alive. It is the greatest feat man has to accomplish, and spirits must flow. (Robert Henri)

feed me

light light light light light light light light light light light make it light keep it light make a light
string string string string string string string string string string is not made of few dots. maybe its more than that or not period

when i close my eyes when i see you when i close my eyes when i see images when i close my eyes when i see chairs when i close my eyes when i see graffitis when i close my eyes when i see lights when i close my eyes when i see abstract pictures when i close my eyes when i can't picture anything in my head sometimes i got scared of what i see when i close my eyes when i close my eyes i see images sometimes i got scared of what i saw when i close my eyes i see strange images i got scared when i close my eyes and want to open my eyes right away because sometimes i got scared when i close my eyes

how much longer - i will wake up in a clear mind
how much longer - i will see a clear picture of what future is like
how much longer - i will have to wait for our next meet
how much longer - i will stop feeling confused about ..
how much longer - i will re-gain :: re-learn :: return
} sleepy afternoon

there's always a moment that i desperate want to talk to someone but anit got so much luck. emo eating out on me when it happens. i think i can do better. i wish i can do better. and i really want to do better. help yourself first then god will take care of the rest? yeh yeh. mom i am sorry i wish i can help

if you accept the pain, it cannot hurt you
the world is changing, put the hours in
meaning scales, people don't

} hugh macleod -ignore everybody

i finished the whole bag of cheese crunches last night and i feel really bad about it
wonder why i can't stop once i start
amen

could someone tell my mom everything is gonna be alright and i am going to be okay too? pls

happiness?

s: i wish people used the word HAPPY the way they do in Russia.

me: how do they use it in Russia?

s: the word for Happiness is… well, it means something else.

me: can you explain?

s: it implies that you have a piece of something that’s fleeting.
you may catch it, or it may leave you…you may be with it, literally,
or ask it to stay with you, and there are many songs on that,
or it may choose to leave you
you can find it, but it may leave.
and so on.
a more advanced notion of the term would be
it’s in motion
so…
dynamic tranquility is probably best to describe it.

“dynamic tranquility.” that’s lovely.

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it's down time again. my fingers, my arms, my knees, especially my head. feel sorry, still worry. may merry come to everyone's door way. merry xmas

"You know I'm currently making some changes in my life. If you don't hear from me then you know you're one of them."

‘Art is fundamentally a survival device of the species. Otherwise it wouldn’t be so persistent. It wouldn’t be in every culture. We wouldn’t know about it…

How does art help you survive? It helps us survive by making us attentive. In a simplistic way, when you go past a forest and you look at it and you say, ‘that looks just like Cézanne.’ And you realize Cézanne has made you see the reality of the forest in a way that you never could have seen before. He’s made you attentive. Every work of art that you care about makes us attentive.’ Milton Glaser

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