how to know if you like someone or you are just lonely

only wish i could say exactly the same thing 
"I do think things get better as you grow older in terms of gaining a real confidence,” she tells Marie Claire. “I'm less desperate. It's just wisdom. You've tried out a lot of things and you've failed a lot of times – you just get better at choosing things that are going to suit you better. Everything is a gamble. You've no idea where the journey is going to take you.” -rachel weisz

love me a kogel mogel 

"Plywood People: How do you overcome “blocks” in your creative process?

 Milena: I read and I do a ton or research. I talk to myself when nobody can hear me. I give myself time to “incubate” good thoughts...."

-Friday Five // Milena Z. Fisher

love me a fufu and peanut soup

love me a patatas bravas ~

having a coke with you 
-Frank O´Hara

farsighted 
& fake tears ? 

A Few Common Greek Phrases

yes	ne
no	ohi
OK	entaksi
how are you?	ti kanis
how are you? (plural)	ti kanete
I'm fine.	ime kala
My name is ...	to onoma mou ine ...
They call me ...	me lene ...
What is your name?	ti ine to onoma to thiko sou?
What do they call you?	pos se lene?
hello (singular)	yia sou
hello (plural)	yia sas
good-bye	yia sou
good-bye (plural)	yia sas
good morning	kali mera
good evening	kali spera
good night	kali nichta
cheers	stin iyia sou
cheers (plural)	stin iyia sas
thank you	efharisto
excuse me	signomi
please	parakalo

how'd you like me to put colors on you ? 

text vs.talk

"I hate texting. My two sons 32 and 21 will not answer a phone call, but if I text them, they will reply. I feel like I am being forced into it, despise it, and it is sad. It most certainly effects our bond. I do not have a text phone, but keep texting on my plan by the message. I work on computer all day in my job. So, the last thing I want to do is text someone. Even if I did, I find it very impersonal. I can understand texting in only very limited circumstances. Call me and we can have a real laugh, LOL." - Monicat 


I do text but I don't like people LOL me 
I do use my phone but not as often as I text on my itouch or pc
What would it be like for me to live w/o texting/messaging one day
Maybe i'll become weirder and weirder 
I don't know how to converse sometimes, like brain just freezes 
I heard most people don't give a f*** of what you say
So I should be okay

stumbled upon +, well, sorta 

the complete guide to not to give a fuck

"Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind,
  withering my intuition, leaving opportunities behind
   -seek that which inspires you, for that is where happiness is found"
 -Luke Benton 

Designing the Life You Love: A Recipe

life of sort taken from cooking : good quality ingredients, a little patience, and lots of love 

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"Maybe that's what life is... a wink of the eye and winking stars"  -jack kerouac

tried to find what is important and found this instead:
ask:
what do i want
what must i do to have it
how would i feel when i have it 
so, what i really want is to feel -
i am part of something / feel like i belong somewhere in this world 

you wont let me

dealbreaker ||rachael yamagata 

susan sontag

-do stuff

be clenched, curious

not waiting for inspiration's shove

or society's kiss on your forehead

-pay attention

it's all about paying attenion

attention is vitality

it connects you with others

it makes you eager

-stay eager 

"There's only one thing that I know how to do well, and I've often been told that you only can do what you know how to do well, and that's be you. Be what you're like. Be like yourself."
They Might Be Giants "Whistling in the Dark"

somebody that i used to know -gotye

Instructions for Life

These statements were falsely attributed to the Dalai Lama in an email hoax. They actually derive from advice in Life's Little Instruction Book: 511 suggestions, observations, and reminders on how to live a happy and rewarding life (1991) by H. Jackson Brown, Jr; More information is available on the hoax at Snopes.com

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three Rs: Respect for self, Respect for others and Responsibility for all your actions.
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
13. Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.
14. Be gentle with the earth.
15. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.
16. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
17. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
18. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

the cursor stopped after i typed -tell me 

so tell me 

what can you tell me 

tell me why i feel like crying 

tell me why i feel what i feel now

tell me

just say it 

will you?

why you at a party if you are sad
why you eat if you are not hungry
why you try to sleep if you can't sleep
why you still breathing if you are already dead inside
nahh, i didn't mean it

"...equality is not necessarily a requirement in a relationship and said, "The heart wants what it wants. There's no logic to those things. You meet someone and you fall in love and that's that."

woody allen

"i'm not a big believer in Fate, in the cosmic plan kind of way. i believe that life throws things your way and that how you decide to act on these things creates your fate. our fates lie in the shaping and focus of these random things that happen to us so that sometimes a seemingly random chain of events brings you to a place that you never thought you'd be and you realize it's not so random at all."

localtime

when i look up in the sky, i see a few clouds and airplanes going in the slow motion. i raise my right arm trying to catch the plane. then i hold my hand really tight close to my heart thinking that one day, i'll be on the plane with that someone flying to a place where we are happy

 

RAdio Tokyo airspace

note to self:

you and mike were in my dream on your bday! bizarre. thanks for the weird funny dream. i was able to wake up with a smile. lets see if you guys go to vietnam for the honey moon like my dream. prolly not is not probably not. keke

is it possible that i just become a sleep walker in my late 30's? sometimes i woke up with sore butt, aching back and bruise on my arms and legs. weird weird

"The American way of life is spontaneously fictional, since it is the transcending of the imaginary in reality."

Jean Baudrillard

If no one else will say it, I say it here: You are loved and you are beautiful.

A:what have you been up to?
B: (thinking quietly) what you want to know? ha nvm

"What you want to do is be easy for one person to get and hard for everyone else, which will increase the likelihood of that one person's liking you" making sense or not really ah

i stick a pencil in my nose. it falls off when i blow my nose. i wish sometimes things could be like that, let loose easily.

found:
a friend once told me that when your 30 your also 29 and 28 and 21 and.. 2, and 1. that we grow like onions, each year another layer. and so when we mature, our youth is still inborn and that living like a 6 year old never fails to be amazing -zack jiang

Several Shades of Why

how do you write about a really excellent day that isn’t excellent because amazing things happened, it’s just excellent because of who you spent it with?
} spiffae

where is my ladder?
i am still looking for my ladder
where is my ladder to earth?
oh i forgot i actually living on earth
where is my ladder to heaven?
no, my time is not here yet
where is my ladder to getting there?
where is there?
what attracts me there?
what can i find there?
there, where are you?
look over here
i am here

i wanna get a hat so i can cover my gray hair

they are lik e new borns

keep coming out

excited to se the world

people like you walk into my life

happy to be born on this day, maybe

Replace fear of the unknown with curiosity -sergejbraun
"Just because you're different, you're no worse or better. You are just different and being different is something wonderful which defines us as human beings." Sabine Kuegler

we gather our ideas to put them into words,” and if our words aren’t empty or hollow, we might get these ideas across to a listener, who can unpack our words to extract their content. This kind of verbiage is not the exception, but the rule
} steve pinker

The model is not to be copied, but to be realized. Count on big lines to express your ideas. Get the few main lines and see what lines they call out. It takes wit, interest and energy to be happy. The pursuit of happiness is a great activity. One must be open and alive. It is the greatest feat man has to accomplish, and spirits must flow. (Robert Henri)

feed me

light light light light light light light light light light light make it light keep it light make a light
string string string string string string string string string string is not made of few dots. maybe its more than that or not period

when i close my eyes when i see you when i close my eyes when i see images when i close my eyes when i see chairs when i close my eyes when i see graffitis when i close my eyes when i see lights when i close my eyes when i see abstract pictures when i close my eyes when i can't picture anything in my head sometimes i got scared of what i see when i close my eyes when i close my eyes i see images sometimes i got scared of what i saw when i close my eyes i see strange images i got scared when i close my eyes and want to open my eyes right away because sometimes i got scared when i close my eyes

how much longer - i will wake up in a clear mind
how much longer - i will see a clear picture of what future is like
how much longer - i will have to wait for our next meet
how much longer - i will stop feeling confused about ..
how much longer - i will re-gain :: re-learn :: return
} sleepy afternoon

there's always a moment that i desperate want to talk to someone but anit got so much luck. emo eating out on me when it happens. i think i can do better. i wish i can do better. and i really want to do better. help yourself first then god will take care of the rest? yeh yeh. mom i am sorry i wish i can help

if you accept the pain, it cannot hurt you
the world is changing, put the hours in
meaning scales, people don't

} hugh macleod -ignore everybody

i finished the whole bag of cheese crunches last night and i feel really bad about it
wonder why i can't stop once i start
amen

could someone tell my mom everything is gonna be alright and i am going to be okay too? pls

happiness?

s: i wish people used the word HAPPY the way they do in Russia.

me: how do they use it in Russia?

s: the word for Happiness is… well, it means something else.

me: can you explain?

s: it implies that you have a piece of something that’s fleeting.
you may catch it, or it may leave you…you may be with it, literally,
or ask it to stay with you, and there are many songs on that,
or it may choose to leave you
you can find it, but it may leave.
and so on.
a more advanced notion of the term would be
it’s in motion
so…
dynamic tranquility is probably best to describe it.

“dynamic tranquility.” that’s lovely.

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it's down time again. my fingers, my arms, my knees, especially my head. feel sorry, still worry. may merry come to everyone's door way. merry xmas

"You know I'm currently making some changes in my life. If you don't hear from me then you know you're one of them."