feed me

light light light light light light light light light light light make it light keep it light make a light
string string string string string string string string string string is not made of few dots. maybe its more than that or not period

when i close my eyes when i see you when i close my eyes when i see images when i close my eyes when i see chairs when i close my eyes when i see graffitis when i close my eyes when i see lights when i close my eyes when i see abstract pictures when i close my eyes when i can't picture anything in my head sometimes i got scared of what i see when i close my eyes when i close my eyes i see images sometimes i got scared of what i saw when i close my eyes i see strange images i got scared when i close my eyes and want to open my eyes right away because sometimes i got scared when i close my eyes

how much longer - i will wake up in a clear mind
how much longer - i will see a clear picture of what future is like
how much longer - i will have to wait for our next meet
how much longer - i will stop feeling confused about ..
how much longer - i will re-gain :: re-learn :: return
} sleepy afternoon

there's always a moment that i desperate want to talk to someone but anit got so much luck. emo eating out on me when it happens. i think i can do better. i wish i can do better. and i really want to do better. help yourself first then god will take care of the rest? yeh yeh. mom i am sorry i wish i can help

if you accept the pain, it cannot hurt you
the world is changing, put the hours in
meaning scales, people don't

} hugh macleod -ignore everybody

i finished the whole bag of cheese crunches last night and i feel really bad about it
wonder why i can't stop once i start
amen

could someone tell my mom everything is gonna be alright and i am going to be okay too? pls

happiness?

s: i wish people used the word HAPPY the way they do in Russia.

me: how do they use it in Russia?

s: the word for Happiness is… well, it means something else.

me: can you explain?

s: it implies that you have a piece of something that’s fleeting.
you may catch it, or it may leave you…you may be with it, literally,
or ask it to stay with you, and there are many songs on that,
or it may choose to leave you
you can find it, but it may leave.
and so on.
a more advanced notion of the term would be
it’s in motion
so…
dynamic tranquility is probably best to describe it.

“dynamic tranquility.” that’s lovely.

via}

it's down time again. my fingers, my arms, my knees, especially my head. feel sorry, still worry. may merry come to everyone's door way. merry xmas

"You know I'm currently making some changes in my life. If you don't hear from me then you know you're one of them."

‘Art is fundamentally a survival device of the species. Otherwise it wouldn’t be so persistent. It wouldn’t be in every culture. We wouldn’t know about it…

How does art help you survive? It helps us survive by making us attentive. In a simplistic way, when you go past a forest and you look at it and you say, ‘that looks just like Cézanne.’ And you realize Cézanne has made you see the reality of the forest in a way that you never could have seen before. He’s made you attentive. Every work of art that you care about makes us attentive.’ Milton Glaser

}

Types of People I enjoy-

All with open hearts and open minds towards others and life. There is little fun being around clones of oneself.

} Eric deWayne valentine

“Wisdom tells me I am nothing,
Love tells me I am everything,
Somewhere in between
my life flows.” - Shinzen Young

i don't know if
'i miss you' means something

sab kuch aacha hai

What happens between us
has happened for centuries
we know it from literature

still it happens

there are books that describe all this
and yet they are useless

You walk into the woods behind a house
there in that country
you find a temple
built eighteen hundred years ago
you enter without knowing
what it is you enter

so it is with us

no one knows what may happen
though the books tell everything

burn the texts said Artaud

— Adrienne Rich

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‘We are too unobservant or too self-centred to fathom one another. Anyone who has seen masks at a ball, dancing amicably together, and holding hands without recognizing one another, only to part a moment later, and neither to meet again nor miss one another, can form a conception of the world at large.’

— Luc de Clapiers de Vauvenargues, ‘Reflections and Maxims’

via }

will you open your chest wide open for me?

the devil lived
but never loved
which is lonely
L one only
as are all
self I-s-O-lations

R.Buckminster Fuller

“It is a woman who hides. She believes that she can hide, which is foolishness; nobody can hide anything. And secondly, nobody would present herself naked the way she does. You have to be high to do this. This woman is obviously nice-looking, but she does not realize the effect she has on us. She does not know that she is half naked, and she does not know that she is trying to hide. That is to say, she is totally self-defeating, because she shows herself at the very moment that she thinks she is hiding.” -Louise Bourgeois

E.D.: Is there a philosophy behind your work?

J.T.: I think philosophy is not the right word. If anything, there is more discipline than philosophy behind my work. Philosophy is a rational study and my work is not always so rational. But it is in search of some kind of truth, albeit unattainable. There is certainly a lot of thoughts behind my work. But there is no conclusion, it asks more questions than it answers. Everything That Happens is my most rational work to date, where the ideas were carried out in a somewhat logical way, but I tried to also leave the work open, leaving room for interpretation.

via:egodesign

they say: There is a recipe for a good life:
Do what your heart calls you to do, and do it with all your heart. Then follow your inspiration and your joy in pursuing that calling, and try not to be shy!

i have an idea of who i wish i were, and that obscures my understanding of who i actually am. sometimes i pretend even to

via:note to self

In jealousy there is more self-love than love-François de La Rochefoucauld

Happiness is not a goal; it is a by-product. ~Eleanor Roosevelt

some pursue happiness others create it

i hate just looking, i always try to grab-D.H. Mondfleur

yesterday i did one thing that made myself feel happy. i was at the gym shaking my butts in a room packed of peeps. a great fun in a long time!

Leonard: What do you think it will take to make a real, substantive change?

Gehry: Creativity and a will to do it. And a lot of it is common sense.

via:treehugger

"Truth is not a reward for good behaviour, nor a prize for passing some tests. It cannot be brought about. It is the primary, the unborn, the ancient source of all that is. You are eligible because you are. You need not merit truth. It is your own. Just stop running away by running after. Stand still, be quiet."

"A quiet mind is all you need. All else will happen rightly, once your mind is quiet. As the sun on rising makes the world active, so does self-awareness affect changes in the mind. In the light of calm and steady self-awareness inner energies wake up and work miracles without effort on your part."

"When you demand nothing of the world, nor of God, when you want nothing, seek nothing, expect nothing, then the Supreme State will come to you uninvited and unexpected."

"The Real Does Not Die, The Unreal Never Lived"

- Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

"Truth is not a reward for good behaviour, nor a prize for passing some tests. It cannot be brought about. It is the primary, the unborn, the ancient source of all that is. You are eligible because you are. You need not merit truth. It is your own. Just stop running away by running after. Stand still, be quiet."

"A quiet mind is all you need. All else will happen rightly, once your mind is quiet. As the sun on rising makes the world active, so does self-awareness affect changes in the mind. In... (read more)

Even “lovers,” he advises, “should guard their strangeness” (CW3: 82) –R. W. Emerson
but to live happy i must be contented with obscurity
-girl_onthe_les

"My Body Is A Cage"

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

I'm standing on a stage
Of fear and self-doubt
It's a hollow play
But they'll clap anyway

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key

I'm living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the shapes fill my head

I'm living in an age
Whose name I don't know
Though the fear keeps me moving
Still my heart beats so slow

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
My body is a

My body is a cage
We take what we're given
Just because you've forgotten
That don't mean you're forgiven

I'm living in an age
That screams my name at night
But when I get to the doorway
There's no one in sight

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key

Set my spirit free
Set my spirit free
Set my body free
-The Arcade Fire

i am thinking of you
you are walking in your street, its wintertime, you've turned up your foxfur collar, you are smiling and remote {species of spaces/georges perec}

Perec - Practical Exercises

Observe the street, from time to time, with some concern for system perhaps.
Apply yourself. Take your Time.
Note down the place: the terrace of a cafe near the junction of the Rue de Bac and the Boulevard Saint Germain
the time: seven o' clock in the evening
the date: 15 May 1973
the weather: set fair
Note down what you can see. Anything worthy of note going on. Do you know how to see what's worthy of note? Is there anything that strikes you?
Nothing strikes you. You don't know how to see.

You must set about it more slowly, almost stupidly. Force yourself to write down what is of no interest, what is most obvious, most common, most colourless.

Georges Perec, Species of Spaces, 1997:50

how do we know Jesus was Jewish?
.he was thirty, unmarried, and still living with his mother
.he went into his father's business
.he thought his mother was a virgin
.and his mother though the was God
{}

"

-continued to live-that is, repeat a habit formed to get necessaries

-cautiously unfolds, emerges what i am -best society 

days-

what are days for?

days are where we live.

they come, they wake us

time and time over.

they are to be happy in:

where can we live but days?

ah, solving that question

brings the priest and the doctor

in their long coats

running over the fields "

to put one brick upon another,

add a third and then a fourth,

leaves no time to wonder whether

what you do has any worth.

but to sit with bricks around you

while the winds of heaven bawl

weighing what you should or can do

leaves no doubt of it at all

{Pphilip}

born yesterday-

tightly folded bud, 

i have wished you something

none of the usual stuff

about being beautiful 

or running off a spring

of innocence and love

they will all wish you that

and should it prove possible 

well you are a lucky girl. 

but if it shouldn't, then

'may you be ordinary; 

have like other women, 

an average of talents:

not ugly, not good looking

nothing uncustomary 

to pull you off your balance,

that, unworkable itself,

stops all the rest from working.

in fact, may you be dull

if that is what a skilled, 

vigilant, flexible,

unemphasised, enthralled

catching of happiness is called.

{20 January 1954 TLD}

The world is waiting to be known; Earth, what it has in it!

The past is in it;

All words, feelings, movements, words, bodies, clothes, girls,

trees, stones, things of beauty, books, desires are in it;

and all are to be known;

Afternoons have to do with the whole world;

And the beauty of mind, feeling knowingly the world!

{Hot Afternoons Have Been in Montana}

“[The] scaling of undefined space to human proportions may be achieved by a line drawn on a road, a floor, a wall, a covering surface, a combination of vertical and horizontal planes, curved or flat, transparent or massive. It is never a partitioning or closing off, but always a defining element of what is here and there, above and below, between and around (Woodworks)." {Gerrit Rietveld}
"All beauty is a making one of opposites, and the making one of opposites is what we are going after in ourselves (Eli Siegel)."

"I prefer drawing to talking. Drawing is faster, and leaves less room for lies."
- Le Corbusier
"Simplicity is about subtracting the obvious, and adding the meaningful."
-John Maeda

what music will you play for me when we meet?

hate waking up in the middle of night

the wall at night is icy cold
don't blow the candles out just yet
will you

so, we are not living in a walki talki distance. it would be fun if the value is opposite of false. i can then walki talki you w/o worrying not having too much to say at time. let be a completed sentence or not or just a word or even a number or a laugh or a heavy breath or and many or's'

Ode To My Toaster

Ode to my toaster, so shiny and clean
You’re the butterknife's foe, you're the bread's trampoline
You're the lightest, the darkest, the coolest and proud
You’re the jack-in-the-box of the countertop crowd.

In the old days you had a side entrance instead
You were far more ornate as a true thoroughbred
But now you're a box with a push-button trick
You're a bit more convenient, but a little too slick.

And if that weren't sufficient to cause you some shame,
There's your bullying arch-rival muscling in on your game
They say big toaster-ovens are "double the tool"
They can brown up a bagel and reheat your gruel.

But don't be discouraged, I still think you're swell
You do do one thing, but you do that thing well
And though fancy new gizmos might stir up a yen, remember
Your name still pops up, every now and again.
{Allan Chochinov}

The eyes of strangers are cold as snowdrops, downcast, folded and seldom visited. And stranger's acts cry but vaguely drift across our attention's smoke sieged afternoons and to live there among strangers,
calls for teashop behaviors:
setting down the cup, leaving the right tip.
Kepping the soul unjostled,
the pocket unpicked,
the fancies lurid,
and the treasure buried
{Strangers-Philip Larkin 20 May 1950}

i see red -uh huh her

you and i -Park Bom

I don't know much about Art, but I know what I like -Gelett Burgess With a man, a lie is a last resort; with women, it's First Aid -Frank Burgess In Europe we tend to see marital love as an eternity which encompasses hate and also indifference; when we promise to love we really mean that we promise to honour a contract. Americans, seeming to take marriage with not enough seriousness, are really taking love and sex with too much -Anthony Burgess- Laugh and the world laughs with you, snore and you sleep alone.

whenever you fall, pick up something -Oswald Theodore Avery
Her grandmother, as she gets older, is not fading but rather becoming more concentrated -Paulette Bates Alden If opportunity doesn't knock, build a door-Milton Berle-Laughter is an instant vacation.

one chair is enough
?

男聲女聲配
男聲女聲配

no dreaming no story

sing and i will hear you
no matter where you are
a song to light the darkest night
and guide me from afar
and i will never be afraid
now i know you are somewhere
you are everywhere to me
the warming of the sun
upon the earth beneath my feet
and when the rain falls down
you tell the story
and i wll hear you
always near you
by the boab tree {australia.angela little}

"I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till i drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion."
-Jack Kerouac {Sebastien_Le_Crab}

In response to a top secret mission gladly accepted and most cleverly organised, we wish you bon voyage, Brian as you weave your merry way London bound. {gracia+louise}

You know that day after day of, Oh God what am I going to do with myself feeling? The fear of the emptiness that it implies keeps me going {Anish Kapoor}

you wont see me smile w/mouth wild open and i think you know why

無常 mujō
Impermanence: all of conditioned existence, without exception, is in a constant state of flux

the little heart on a page

13.7: Cosmos and Culture
"That is why I am here. That is why I am part of 13.7: Cosmos and Culture. Like the other members of this group I am interested in understanding the living context in which this fantastically powerful tool we call science should be placed. It is a deep question about the nature of what is true and real in the world. It is a deeply moving question about the nature of our response to the beauty that reveals itself in so many ways including the fruits of scientific activity. And now, in this strange moment we find ourselves in, it is an urgent question. Now there is a harsh imperative to understanding science and its cultural context because it is exactly that collision which we must learn to manage at the crossroads."

wishlist:showerhead/minä

The most potent way to exist is to occupy someone else’s imagination -alice dallow

如果有一件事是重要的

some coincidences are deliberate

keep loving and doing what you love

RIP superlocal
have yet said hello and my appreciation for all the great photos you shared on flickr
i know you are in a better place now. let be wherever, peace

there is no spring without a winter no life without death and demise of lanney has blown a new season into the lungs of young Johnny. good bye Mr. Sidney Shaw -RockNRolla

shame that the fish never meet with the chips
french bread never say hi to garlic butter n
pork chop never accompany the mash on a dinner plate

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you....

{something about us-daft punk}

DeTnk
LostATemiNor

feeling dirty today

i need to admit up front that i dont
know how to have a fling. i am not good at
playing around and then saying good bye.
i am throwing myself at your feet because
i am hoping for a shot at forever. you don't
have to say anything now, no promises
required. i just thought you should know.
-Austenland, Shannon Hale

i am pantone 17-3924
-lavender violet

-via information travels faster

what couldn't you live without?
giving / receiving love

i am becoming weirder and weirder
sky is still blue
milkyway is milkyway
i am on my way to you
standing on the earth ground
thinking about you
yes you
'not at all time but you are often'
after all i can't believe
you
are still on my mind
as i am becoming weirder and weirder
is there something about us?
i couldn't remember what brings us together
but i know what keeps us apart,
and what keeps me coming back for more
kicking self harder is not gonna take away
the footprint you have left on me
that
i think i'd like to keep
best not to think about it with a heavy heart
it never starts,
and it's not gonna end just yet,
i know
i am becoming weirder and weirder

fall hard and fast
----------freeze me

so like to have a place where i can call home at

Have you ever noticed
That I’m not acting as I used to do before?
Have you ever wondered
Why I always keep on coming back for more?
-snapshots

'still on my mind'
if you do feel for me
tell me who you really are
and if you don't give a damn
please let me go/walk away

my heart was pumping red
now it has turned purple

'something gotta to be true'
maybe u only are true to yourself

i felt for you and i still do
do you need to hear it for your ego?
'just like monkey, never let go until get hold onto another pole'
are you that monkey?

i don't get you
but will i ever?

i was brave once
i know i can be brave again

everything will be okay in the end
if its not okay,
then it's not the end -via JJJJound

design for life

Fantasy love is much better than reality love.
Never doing it is very exciting. The
most exciting attractions are between
two opposites that never meet.
-Andy Warhol

Whoever said: what you don't know can't hurt you" was complete and total moron. Becuase for most people I know, not knowing is teh worst feeling in the world.
-Grey's Anatomy

++Its amazing what one person can do. Some people build you up just to bend and break you. Some people bring out parts of you that you had no clue existed. All throughout life we meet people and every single one of them brings somethign to us; gives us some sort of purpose. We come across people who will hurt us so incredibly much that it seems unbearable to go on with our lives, but the truth is, we can overcome anyting we want to, if we believe in it enough, if we have faith in ourselves, in who we are.

sometimes we just have to learn to accept that people might stay in our hearts, even if they dont stay in over lives.

its funy how you think you actually mean something to someone, and they just trun around and prove you wrong.

they say loving you is my biggest mistake, but how can it be so wrong if it feels so right? if i ever made a mistake, its not that i love you, but it's thinking that someday you'll love me too.++
via:more than just a pretty face

Boys frustrate me. I hate all their indirect messages, and I hate game playing. Do you like me or do you not? Just tell me so I can get over you. -Kirsten Dunst

For an artist, and I try to be one, everything that happens is material for your work; sometimes it's very difficult. Happiness doesn't require anything more; it's an end in itself. Unhappiness has to be transformed into something else; it has to be elevated to beauty. For an artist everything that happens to him has to be clay for his mold, and he must try to feel things this way, even if these if this gifts might be atrocities. -Jorge Luis Borges

the heart chooses what it chooses
we don't really have noting to do about it- Bones (what does that mean?)

you're in trouble, drink your latte.
almost perfect 5 secs, anybody?

-i think the hardest part about waiting is not knowing whether you are waiting for anything at all.
-Girls aren't really all that complicated. Just an aching for love, attention, and affection.
-Somedays, we'll cuddle together on the couch, wearing sweats and eating ice cream that we both like, watching our favourite movies, making and laughing at the jokes that only we understand, and i realised that this everyday, simpple, no-big-deal moments is my kind of happiness.
-via http://runawaytrain.tumblr.com/

you didn't love her, you just didn't want to be alone. or, maybe, maybe, she was just good for your ego, or mabe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but
you didn't love her, because you don't desotry people you love.
-Grey's Anatomy

i love him for his intelligence, his sensitivity, his courage. i love him wholly and unconditionally without reservation. i love him enough to take risks, i love him enough to sacrifice a friendship. i love him enough to accept my own happiness and use it, in turn, to make him happy back.
-Emily Giffin

Belive nothing,
no matter where you read it
or who has said it, not even if
I have said it, unless it agrees
with your own common sense. -Buddha

I want to beg you much as I can to be patient
toward all thats unsolved in your heart,
and learn to love the questions themselves,
like locked rooms or like books that are
written in a very foreign tongue.
Do not seek the answers, which cannot be given you,
becuase you would not be able to live them,
and the point is to live everything.
Live the quetsion now,
perhpaps you wil then, gradually, without noticing it,
live along some distant day into the answer.
-viaRainer Maria Rilke (via omgitsjpax) (via quote-book) (via shany) (via amandoline)

work like you don't need money
love like you've never been hurt
and dance like no one's looking

The quotation I have found most potent in warding off evil spirits is the motto of the Flemish philosopher Arnold Geulincx (1624-69): “Ubi nihil vales, ibi nihil velis.” “Where you are worth nothing, you should want nothing.” That’s mine. You can’t use it.
"Language is a virus from outer space." — William S. Burroughs
-via http://www.bookofjoe.com/2007/02/17/index.html

Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to seal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authetic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don't bother concealing your thievery-celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: "It's not where you take things from-it's where you take them to."
-Jim Jarmusch

We all have the ability to feel. It's a beautiful and ugly thing. if only my other thoughts could be read my life would be a little easier
- d. yee

Know first who you are; and then adorn yourself accordingly -euripides

You really just got to enjoy things they way they are -Bones

When you wished upon birthday candles, and now you wish on a boy who is holding your heart.

I don’t hate him. I loved him until I figured out it hurts a lot less to just not care.
-House

++Hey,
you and I
are going to have
a big love affair
and it won't work.
But somewhere in the middle,
my god, we tried.++

whether you think you can
whether you think you can't
you are right
-Henry Ford

"Great minds discuss ideas.
Average minds discuss events.
Small minds discuss people."

Standards are like toothbrushes,
everybody agrees you should have one,
but
no one wants to use yours. -joe croser

Helvetica is like a really good friend.
You go off and hang with the other fonts (the artsy, grungy, trendy, thin, fat, tall, scripty types) and even use them a little, but helvetica is always there. A nice stable friend.
-Andrew Frigo

Broken gets fixed. Shoddy lasts forever -jack moffet

Content precedes design. Design in the absense of content is not design, its decoration.
-Jeffery Zeldman

Colors, like features,
follow the changes of thte emotion. -Pablo Picasso

Design is the method of putting form and content together.
Design, just as art, has multiple definitions; there is no single definition.
Design can be art; Design can be aesthetics. Design is so simple, thats why it is so complicated.
-Paul Rand

Do, or do not. There is no "try". -Yoda

i am making a few adjustments. hope you don't mind. it's been quite a ride w/you even if we haven't really met and you knew how much i wanted to do that as I really liked to see the "real" you. it sux how things could wind up at time. i was so into you, you know. and you used to make me the happiest girl in the world. now it pains me to not to IM you. it pains me not to be able to converse w/u in ease cause i care more than you do. i want to feel better and figure mabee taking a break from you would help. we'll see. mabee one day i'll see you poping up on my desktop again, unpredictable man

Every closed eye is not sleeping, and every open eye is not seeing.

I am certainly not an authority on love because there are no authorities on love, just those who've had luck with it and those who haven't.

I wasn't always black... there was this freckle, and it got bigger and bigger.

The past is a ghost, the future a dream, and all we ever have is now.

Every father says the same thing: "Where's your mother?"

-Bill Cosby

something seems to be missing here. i know i am ugly but i glow at nite
here but i'm gone
It's not a matter of what I'd like to do, but how things result. There are strict limits, but they never stop until you do.
i will manage

for once, i wanted to be brave
i wanted to be able to touch you soul
the fun we used to have on chat
not sure if you felt it
two hearts were having a conversatoin
its light
fluffy
and colorful
since when it all changed
i wonder
well
all in all
i want to
be
brave again