Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

— Dr. Seuss

Sometimes our flame goes out, but is blown again into instant flame by an encounter with another human being.
— Albert Schweitzer

Love is like a Rhino, short-sighted, but always willing to find a way.
-Unknown

Every artist was first an amateur.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

The thing always happens that you really believe in; and the belief in a thing makes it happen.
-Frank Loyd Wright

If you would create something, you must be something.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

The power of imagination makes us infinite.
-John Muir

Nothing happens until I make it happen.
-Scott Wilson

If you can't describe what you are doing as a process, you don't know what you're doing.
-W. Edwards Deming

My opinions may have changed, but not the fact that I'm right.
-Ashleigh Brilliant

The fellow who thinks he knows it all is especially annoying to those of us who do.
-Harold Coffin

Lots of times you have to pretend to join a parade in which you're not really interested in order to get where you're going.

-Christopher Darlington Morley

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream.

-Mark Twain

Tomorrow Starts Without Me

If tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we shared,
And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss some tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day is the same way,
There's no longing for the past.

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart "

I Am Thankful

I am thankful for everything I have experienced
In this life of mine
For in all I have found
That in His Word-the answers I find

I am thankful for all the tears I have cried
For they have taught me to appreciate laughter
They have given me the ability to see the
The joy that comes after

Through my tears I have come to know
His Holy Spirit in my life
How He is always there
And comforts through the strife

I am thankful for the storms I have encountered
Knowing that the rainbow is at the end
Realization that they are only temporal
That with time all will mend

I have learned that I don’t need to be strong
For Yahshua supplies the strength for me
He shoulders my burdens
Regardless of what the circumstance may be

I am thankful for all the relationships
For the good and yes, for the bad
For they have given life to my emotions
An appreciation of what I have had

My most valuable relationship
Is that with Yahweh, my Father
I know that I can trust Him
As I can trust no other

I am thankful for the pain I have known
It has given a compassion for the suffering
An ability to reach out to others
An appreciation of little things

I understand the greatness of Yahshuas love
And the pain He has suffered for me
How He endured all things
So that I could be set free

I am thankful for the hunger and thirst
That I have had to go through
I appreciate having food before me
And sharing it with others too

He has given himself as my food and drink
To make sure that I was fed
His Blood shed for my drink
And His Body broken for my bread

Most of all, I am thankful for His Grace
For the provisions that it brings
How it has provided for
Me in all things

Kathleen Shelton Poulson

The Person I Long To Be

The day light breaks again
Another day has begun.

But still no sleep has come.
My body is weary

My mind overworked.
I lie awake thinking

But what I am unsure.
I need to break free from the cycle I endure.

Everyday is the same and the nights are undistinguished.
I feel as though I am being pushed along with the tide

Unable to break free from the everyday flow.
This is not me I need to change, before time takes over

And I am unable to change.
I need to be freed from the grasp of ordinary

And become that person I have always longed for.
Express myself in every way, and conquer the dreams as I lie awake.

Then I may fall asleep and put my mind to rest.
Make changes in my life and help those in need.

I would like to touch everyone's life in a positive way
And leave my mark on society before I fade away.

Victoria A. Mogyorosi

I’m
Taking a ride
Off to one side
It is a personal thing
Where
When I can’t stand
Up in this cage I’m not regretting

I don’t need a better thing
I’d settle for less
It’s another thing for me
I just have to wander through this world
Alone

Stop
before you fall
Into the hole that I have dug here
Rest
Even as you
Are starting to feel the way I used to

I don’t need a better thing
Just to sound confused
Don’t talk about everyone
I am not amused by you

'Cause I’m gonna lose you
Yes, I’m gonna lose you
If I'm gonna lose you

'Cause I’m gonna lose you
Yes, I’m gonna lose you
If I'm gonna lose you

I'm gonna lose you for good

Peter Yorn //Lose You

If I never meet you in this life, let me feel the lack; a glance from your eyes, and my life will be yours.

me without you

I dream of a world not afraid of color. A world where Oranges and Cyans can cohabit freely. Where Magentas and Greens hold hands with Greys and Teals. A world where no one would deny the right of a Yellow to marry a Blue. I dream of a world where the color one wears is as bold as one is.

-Chris Hemingway

“Jordan Lee 7/1/08

Today I think upon the nature of the mind and how little of mine I know. It wasn’t too long ago that I was of the assumption that the mind was something I used, a tool that I was given and relied on.

Only after each day of watching myself in action have I found I am, instead, just an occurance of my mind, this deeper thing that is my fate embodied.”

"I’ve never been 100% confortable and confident in myself, but I mask it pretty well."

so yeah, i am so much a dreamer still.
thanks to you, i know it now.

"It’s so many miles and so long since I’ve met you
Don’t even know what I’ll find when I get to you
But suddenly now, I know where I belong
It’s many hundred miles and it won’t be long" -Train Song
Vashti Bunyan

Sometimes i still feel the bruise.

January 18, 2009, 7:21 pm
Filed under: intangibles

This is just to say “hello”
And to let you know
I think of you from time to time
I know I never really knew you
But somehow I miss you
And wish that you’d stayed in my life

Making contact gets harder
As the silence grows longer
And isn’t it only me
Who’d like us to see each other?
How I would hate to be a bother
The way we left it was you’d ring

I’m under no illusion
As to what I meant to you
But you made an impression
And sometimes I still feel the bruise
Sometimes I still feel the bruise

Now and then I stumble on
What I’ve misplaced but never lost
An ache I first felt long ago
Though you’ve appeared and disappeared
Throughout these past few years
I’d be surprised if you now showed

Making contact gets harder
As the silence grows longer
And why would you think of me
When you were not the one in love?
When you were not the dreamer?
When you were just the dream?
-Trembling blue stars.

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Same but Different

I'm in a boat
On the sea
And I see
You on the shore
So sure
Of yourself

You're in a boat
On the sea
And you see
Me on the shore
So sure
Of myself

We're in a boat
All at sea
And we see
We are the same
The same
But different

-Vashti Bunyan

you paly me hot and cold

FOOTPRINTS ON THE HEART-

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some people move our souls to dance.
They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.
Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.
They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts
And we are never, ever the same."

Crimson Days

Every night I empty my heart, but by morning it's full again
Slow droplets of you sleep in through the night's soft caress
At dawn I overflow with thoughts of us
An aching pleasure that gives me no respite
Love cannot be contained
The neat packaging of desire splits asunder
Spilling crimson through my days
Long, languishing days that are now bruised tender with yearning
Spent searching for a fingerprint, a scent, a breath you left behind.

-Kelly Moss

today i put my purse in the washer. only to find out the washing had poked a hole in it during the course. but hey, no worries, i superglued it and it's all fixed now. a scare is not gonna hurt me.

- thanks for being my friend

i could be into you if i knew you were into me, you know

很多時候我們總是身處在孤獨的位置上
獨自面對著四面八方而來的龐大壓力和責任
要消化這些巨量的負荷
必須同時擁有堅定的意志、樂觀的心情、以及積極的態度
不能天真地期待別人來照亮自己
自己就是自己唯一的太陽

agape / eros / philia 3:25pm

flickr a connector 1:21pm

盲活 1:15pm

people who make us happy are
never the people you expect.
so...when you find someone,
you got to cherish it.

-skins:naomi

i know you
i know you lonely
i think you need someone to want you
well, i do want you
so, be brave and want me back

-skins:emily

part of me think this is what i want
part of me think this isn't, but
what if part of me think this isn't ....feel that way because i am scared?

-six feet under

adorable, isnt it?

DUNNO

cheese cake lollypop

do you see it coming?

rain, please stop-
my wipers are no good

rail-
to lead me

here i come~
to the sea

no

forgot to take the time to write down things that matter. not to you but myself only. perhaps i should have something for you soon.

truck

mushroom

Hey

glass shop

ppl like me require more of intense attention and helps. er.. need to work on my writting and reading immersely. its almost here. so i wil be blogging more from now on. have no idea if its gonna help me to improve my writting but i figure i got nothing to lose. so i will keep writing!

hi gang

a big surprise from mumu today was that she is three months preganant now. what a great news! i just thought what a great year for 1845: two gang memebers are having a baby, vicky & justin are getting married and vivi landed on permanent position at Apple. It definitely cant get any better than this, dont you all agree with me?

i am so so happy for mumu aiya and winston. they are going to start a whole new chapter of their lives. things are going to be so different and tough since there are still a lot of things they haven't sorted it out yet, but i am sure they will do just great. wow. i do not know how to put it in words. cant find the pharse to describe how thrill i am just by thinking about when we all meet at the next 1845 reunion. I am hoping its gonna be soon. I just cant wait for the moment to come.

miss you all, lots love

hi gang,

my brian got issue and i am sure you all know that by heart. er.. what to write today. well, i started at waking up late this moring and was late at least 15 mins for my glass class. when i got there, my partner already blowing glass and i had to wait for my turn. so i went to library to pick up "digital hadid" and got some dvds also. went straight back to shop afterward. saw a bunch of high school kids in the shop and was wondering what the heck they were doing there. anyway, it was my turn to blow the glass. i occupied the bench #1 and started the rutine of blowing process.
i was quite happy with the result even though its so small. oh well, i'll blow a big one next time.

miss you

hi gang,

what've you all been doing? my knee is kiling me. maybe tomorrow is going to rain? silly huh..
have to schedule pap test and st art to tprepare for wst intensely now, gotta do it! cant be lazy now. er.. me lazy u know

hi gang,

haven't talked to you all for a while. hoping you all are doing well and i am sure its like that. wonder what you guys would do if you got stuck on things like working. its like your brain just went dead and cant get out of the loop. you know what i am saying. it happens to me a lot when i was trying to design something different from others but in the end, it all turns out similar like the others. oh, btw, i watched the movie called "motorcycle diary" recently and liked it a lot. you all should check that one out if you havent seen it.

hi gang,

did i tell you guys i locked myself out the car 3 times maybe 4 times already. it was so horrible. dont know what have gotten into me lately. my computer borke and so did my brain, haha. well, wanna say wish you all have a very happy moon festival. love ya.

hi gang,

how are you guys doing? wonder what amy's little pig's sex is. i hope is a little piggy girl hehe. i might go to bed early today. was up till 6 this morning doing the stupid tabloid project. my right hand now hurts. thnx to all the clicking. so, plz lets not forget to do the hand exercise okay and take a break between work.

my glass partner working on making a cylinder

hi gang,

i am sleepy at this moment, but cant go to bed yet becuase got hw to do still. always feel tired after glass shop. actualy i am gonna post a couple pix i took today in the glass shop. i've never known i can sweat like that. i mean, man, it won't stop. they kept dripping down from my forehead while i was heating the glass up in front of the glory hole. oh, reminds me to put something on my forehead before going in next time. tomorrow actully. the heat in the shop, u guys got to be there to udnerstand what i am talking about here. its sorta of like being in sunna room. alright, get back to work now, talk to all later

hi gang,

i am sleepy at this moment, but cant go to bed yet becuase got hw to do still. always feel tired after glass shop. actualy i am gonna post a couple pix i took today in the glass shop. i've never known i can sweat like that. i mean, man, it won't stop. they kept dripping down from my forehead while i was heating the glass up in front of the glory hole. oh, reminds me to put something on my forehead before going in next time. tomorrow actully. the heat in the shop, u guys got to be there to udnerstand what i am talking about here. its sorta of like being in sunna room. alright, get back to work now, talk to all later

hi gang,

okay what i am going to write to you today. its usually not a good thing to make a decision when you are in a state of, how you say that, i dont want to address it as a spontaneous act but its sorta of like that. so, when i think of doing something, i'll want to excecute it without giving a second thought. sometimes, its not so cleaver to make such quick call/judgement. i guess i never learn from the past experience. err.. need to change that habit definitely.

hi gang,

havent talked to you all for a while. i msn w/mumu ai ya and little win last night; that mr. is still the same. wonder how mumu can fed up with him. hehe

oh, i will have to give a buzz to vivi and mike since i had this talk w/mumu abt maybe we could all get together on one of these days.

as for me, nothing new really. fool around a bit here and there! ill bring u guys the details if theres anything up alright

peace out!

hi gang,

still remember when i i saw it happens on tv in that morning. his mom called to tell that the word trade center was crashed by the hijackers attack. we were so shocked back then. can't believe its been five years already after the attack. time flies. miss you all

hey hey

wow wow wow for the gang! i am so happy to hear all these good news. hope you all keep the good things coming and i will try to stay away from the troubles as we speak. seriously, well done guys! miss you all!

hi gang,

do you think you contradict yourself sometimes. i think i do. should stop being a butthead and focus on what i am supposed to do. yeah, wish me luck!

hi gang,

good to hear you all voice out. i am just glad that all the good things are happening now. we should keep this positive energy coming and coming.

vicky aiya: its okay if you can't fit into size 2, you will look astonish no matter what sort of wedding gown you put on. but do practice on the smile coz it comes handy later :)

fei: i am sure that you wil figure something out. i know its not easy and i am talking for myself also. rememer, you are not alone and will never be becuase we will always be there for you if you ever need to talk to someone. alright kido!

mumu monky: a job at a catering company, awesome. you are on the right track towarding things you wanna to do in the future. i am so happy for you. good work! btw, yeah my apt is such disaster i know. hehe

hi gang

i am sure you all got vivi's email. being an offical employee at apple, wow what a wonderful news. i am so happy and pround of you. :) congrats gal!

went to the santa cruz on the labor day and took some pics. there were so many ppl out there playing vallyball, swim, eating corn dog, drinking beer, and dancing salsa. really wish you were there with me.

miss you

the light house

dear all

i am sure you all have seen amy's ultra sound pic of her baby little pig. i am so happy and also excited about the great news. me and mumu were just talking about who is going to have the baby firs the other dayt and we know what the answer it now. :) congrats amy and james!

my sisters. do u guys think we look alike?

hi gang

how you guys doing lately? school finally started. its gonna be a busy semester. i will have to work my ass off. wish me luck! lots love!

How could you not love "mac"? . I found this interesting video through digg.com. Check it out: http://cyberiannomad.blogspot.com/2006/08/first-keynote-of-steve-jobs-1984.html

Happy Mac Face rules.

hi gang,

its almost here. i couldn't believe the summer vacation is over now. gonna start to go to school agian next wed. the only thing i would say i have a great summer of is to hang with tje rest of gang of 1845 in the us. it was a blast. i almost forgot how good it feels just to be with you guys. wish we could do that more often. love you all!

mumu's new place

alright, so yeah, i think that life isn't so complicated itself. what makes it so is us. at least i m talking for myself. dont you hate yourself sometimes. well, i do. as matter of fact, i hate myself right now. i wish thers a pill for this lazyness. i wish a lot of things. the list could go on and on. i really wish i didnt do it. miss you all gangs.

okay, its 1:20 and they are still singing. oh god. i can take it if they have nice voice but they dont, i mean they sound like off pitch all the time. please stop neighbors!

i hate taking pills. they stuck on my thorat all the time. why? well, because they are giantatic and my throat just not big enough for them to go thrugh. anyway, miss you gangs!

i was happy with the photos i took today. the outcome was better than what i expected. again, it wasnt so prodcutive day. got home from work around 3 something after visiting wamu. was gonna do some reading but couldn't as usual. i kinda give it a excuse that i wasnt feeling so wel coz my throat hurt a little and got light headache. i think its the symptom of a cold, like papa always says: if i feel cold on a hot day, got bodyache or sore throat, which means that theres a possibilty that i mgiht catch a cold already; therefore, i need a rest. ha, such a pitty, dont you think

whats bothering me, i think i got confused so that i couldn't have a good night sleep. i only slept like 3 hrs last night. went to bed around 4am or so and got up when lois was up at 7. she showered, packed her stuffs and took off to san fran i think. i knew becuase i left my door slightly opened. sleepy.. naping time

hi gang,

feeling down lately? you know it sux big time to come home and be the only person in the house. i hate it so much but there's nothing i could do. i wish at least one of my roommies could be home with me even though sometimes we dont really carry a conversation but still. i guess what i am saying is that i hate to be home alone. thats all. going to work now and i'll talk to you all l8er

hi gang

bit tired tonight. don't quite know what happened to me lately, sudden mood-swing is really bothersome. perhapes its becuase my meimei is here. i hate when it happens though. it puts me to the depress state. oh well, i cant avoid it, so i am just gonna learn to adjust it.

i think amy and james will do great on their business eventually. They will need luck and some good efforts of getting their business going. May God be with them and the whole gang of 1845 will always be you guys' support :) Cheers up amy and james!